I am staring at the blank screen, not knowing what to write. Actually not knowing how to phrase what I want to say today.
Over the last few weeks my blog has grown, not much has changed. I try to write regularly, and at the moment I post something every day as it is NanoPoblano! I always write what comes from the heart, I have a small plan that I follow, but book reviews have grown rare here, and it seems as though travel has grown in importance.
A few weeks ago I sat down and did some soul searching. I tried to figure out the answer to the question that so many people ask themselves: why am I doing what I am doing? In my case I asked myself the question: Why do I write? Where does it all come from? When did it start? I asked myself all of this as I had been asked by Gulara to write a blog post for her new series: The Story Behind the Story.
I started to dig in my brain, for memories. I opened old boxes and took out notebooks, looked through them. Not all memories that I came across were good, some had nothing to do with writing. But going through them enabled me to make peace with some things that I had wanted to forget, that I did not accept, thus could not forget.
Since I wrote my contribution for The Story Behind the Story I have grown as a writer but also as a person. It was like a cleansing meditation. I have gained in confidence. A confidence which for me is reflected in the absence of fear from hitting that publish button on my blog. Due to this confidence I signed up for NaNoWriMo (I am behind, but I am not worried, what counts is that the book is starting to take shape) and NanoPoblano. I don’t know, but I feel like writing now comes easier to me.
Do you sense this confidence?
It seems as though confidence attracts both readers and comments. I want to thank everyone who has read or commented thus far on my blog. It really means a lot to me, and has also influenced that growing confidence.
Now, if you have come this far and before I let you go, you might want to read my guest post “Answering my True Calling”, it even includes a small story I wrote in German when I was probably 9 or 10. And then go on and linger on Gulara’s blog, she is a very inspiring blogger.
From the heart, thank you!
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