Nano Poblano 2019, here I am!

I still exist. And I want to be back in the world of blogging.

The thing is, that in the past blogging went from fun to a chore. Posting regualarly, replying to comments, returning visits, visiting blogs I want to visit… After my mother’s death and even more so after the birth of my second child, keeping up with blogging seemed downright impossible.

I cannot follow the rules that I thought I was meant to follow (those that made me anxious about blogging). I have to follow my own rules. Blogging is for me. If you enjoy what I write, then that is great. I will visit your blog if I have the time and energy to do so. I will engage with your comments if they are worth engaging with. I will write and post if I can.

So, now enough with the meaculpa. And off to a new chapter in blogging. I have so many stories to write. So many things to share.

And now I seem to have the time. At least I have the time today, I am writing this before November. November will be different…

For some time now, I have been pondering whether or not I should join NanoPoblano this year. After all, I participated in this month of blogging fun hosted by the lovely Ra in 2015. Blogging back then was a way for me to deal with the emotional stress, that I was going through.

My blog was launched when my daughter was slightly over a year old. Two months later, we found out that my mother had an advanced stage of cancer caused by HPV. I worked only a little, to spend time with my child and my mother, the idea of separation from either one of them felt wrong at the time.

I worked, but not much. In 3 months I worked as much as I do in half a month now. But I still needed out, some contact with the world. Blogging was amazing. I did not share my mother’s condition until after her funeral. But it was a valve permitting me to canalise the situation I was in. Thus now, with two kids and quite a lot of work blogging has fallen to the side. Finding time to write is the first challenge. Then the energy. The last months have been stressful and tiring, more on that this month. Now, when we finally come to a calm spot another storm brews on the horizon.

Have an amazing November, I hopet that you will stop by here and there, to check out what I have to share.

And if you are intrigued, here is the list of the other peppers.

Happy Mother’s Day – Fundraising

Celebrate your mom today!

I am thinking a lot about my mom lately. It was on the 10th of May three years ago, that she received the diagnosis. For her and us, her family and friends a world-altering diagnosis.

She had been diagnosed with cancer.

On that day we did not know the extent of the sickness.

Soon we found out that her cancer, caused by HPV was for one very rare and that it had spread to other organs. Both facts made the outlook for the future bleak. Her cancer, a vaginal carcinoma, a very rare cancer, and rarely diagnosed in women under the age of 65, meant that there were few tested and successful treatments for the medical staff to use. It had spread, also meant that there were little options left.

Still, we had hope. My mom turned into a fierce fighter. She wanted to get rid of the villain nestled inside her. She was sure that she would make it, that treatment would work. These beliefs were comforted by a dream she had that resonated with her, in her dream she heard that her soul’s time on this earth wasn’t up. She had read the book “Dying to be me” only weeks before her diagnosis. Thus she was certain miracles could happen.

Through good contacts, luck and negotiations she was accepted on a trial program for immunotherapy. Who knows, maybe if the treatments would have started earlier, she would be here today, to celebrate mother’s day with her grandchildren and daughters.

Toward the end of her life, my mother invested us with a mission.

She wants us to educate others on HPV. She wants us to use her art, her story to create awareness. She wants us to communicate on the HPV Vaccination. She wants us to raise funds to finance research. So that no one has to lose their life to preventable cancer. So that no one loses their mom prematurely. So that no one loses their daughter prematurely. So that no one loses their spouse prematurely. So that no one loses their sister, their cousin, their aunt, their grandmother, their friend prematurely due to a preventable disease.

Every year my dad organises a Charity bike ride. This year the NWC or Nicola Werner Challenge will go into its 4th edition. If you are keen on biking in France (start and finish in Paris) then hop over to the website and register. Registration fees are 100€ and you get a ton of goodies. Those paying taxes in France get a tax deduction too…

But maybe travelling to Paris for a bike ride, however, tempting isn’t your thing or it isn’t in your budget. Maybe you have a weakness for art and want to purchase one of my mom’s prints. You can do that and I will be happy to find out where you will be hanging it!

I truly understand if those two things aren’t for you. Therefore we are fundraising on the side. Anyone can create their own fundraiser for the Nicola Werner Association or they can participate in an existing one.

Thus today, on Mother’s day, I invite you to give a small (or big amount) to fund cancer research. My goal is to raise a total of 5000€. If all people following my blog )you are a little more than 600, but I think, seen the stats, you don’t all really come here all the time) were to give between 5 and 10 € then you would help me reach that goal in no time. And if you only have 1€ to give, then I will be grateful to you as much as to the person giving €1000, because every little bit helps.

I invite you to head over to my fundraiser, and thank you!

I really feel uncomfortable asking for money. But knowing that it isn’t for me but to support my mother’s last wish it is a lot easier.

Have a great mother’s day! If you have a mom, tell her how much you love her!


Find out more about the Nicola Werner Research Award.
Art against cancer (my mom’s project).
My mom’s last message, this video is in German, but it has subtitles.
NWC Paris – the carity’s homepage
My recent post about HPV.
And again the link to my fundraiser. Thank you so much for your support!

Oh you should continue reading the story…