Queue – A to Z Challenge 2019

“Sorry” the woman behind the counter apologised, not sounding apologetic at all.

I looked at her with a quizzical look. What was she pretending to be sorry for? It wasn’t the queue I had waited in for the past two hours.

“Miss, I must tell you that you have waited in the wrong line.”

My heart sunk. “What do you mean?” I stuttered, suddenly hoping that it was April Fool’s day.

“Today, I cannot work on requests regarding A783B12?” She answered, like as if that was the most obvious thing in the world.

“What do you mean with A783B?” I couldn’t remember the remaining numbers.

“A783B12 is the type of query you have. And I only work on those on Mondays and Thursdays, but today we are Tuesday. You have waited in the wrong line!”

“Wait, what!? You must be pulling my leg right?” There was no answer just a big fat fake smile, no compassion. “Are you telling me that I queued for 2 hours for what, for you telling me that I have to come back in two days? I took the afternoon off work to come here.”

“Calm down young lady, or I will have to call security.” She answered violently. “I am not telling you to come back tomorrow, no, you have to get a different number form the computer, look your paper is G25 that’s not the right one. You need to get a paper with a U on it. Just go back to the machine, it will put you into the right queue!”

I glared at her in disbelief. All this waiting for nothing? The assistant at the entrance had asked me a few questions, had a look over my documents and then pressed a big button on a computer that then spat out a ticket.

“Madame, sorry, but I am not the one who pressed the button. Can you not do something for me? I have been here for hours. And as you said, the type of query I have is in your field of competencies, it is just well not the right day.”

“Nope, there is nothing I can do for you, just get into the right queue or come back on a different day.”

On a whim, I decided to join the A to Z Challenge this year. Knowing fairly well that making it would be the biggest challenge. For almost 3 years my blogging has been sporadic, work, kids and life get in the way. Still, I joined. I am lagging behind, and I got kicked off the master list. But I will finish, even if I will be late.

Omnipresent – O – A to Z Challenge 2019

The images couldn’t leave her mind. They would not leave her alone.

However hard she tried to forget the atrocities she had seen during her childhood. During the warfare in her country of birth.

The streaming blood, the grey and cold limbs covered in dust. Where always there. Haunting her.

She rearranged the flowers. It didn’t help. Fresh roses had been placed on graves. Now, she was trying to sell them. This job she had hoped would not trigger the memories.

The sirens sounded. Terrible images came over her. She wanted to hide, but hiding during the exam was not an option. Here she was safe. Still inside she panicked. The clock indicated that it was noon, the first Wednesday of the month. Every month she started to panic, over and over again.

In the café, the TV was on with the news. She stepped back in horror. Those images felt like the ones she had witnessed without the protective layers of journalism and screens in-between.

She sat down at the kitchen table. Crying, shivering, shaking. She couldn’t lift the fork to her mouth. This time it wasn’t the food, for it was her husband’s cooking. It was the neighbours fighting, yelling for the whole world to hear, slamming doors and breaking plates that took her back to the past.

She had to live with her fears, her memories, always. Everything could trigger the darkest things she had seen to come back. It was raw, even years later. It was omnipresent in her life.