I am staring at the blank screen, not knowing what to write. Actually not knowing how to phrase what I want to say today.
Over the last few weeks my blog has grown, not much has changed. I try to write regularly, and at the moment I post something every day as it is NanoPoblano! I always write what comes from the heart, I have a small plan that I follow, but book reviews have grown rare here, and it seems as though travel has grown in importance.
A few weeks ago I sat down and did some soul searching. I tried to figure out the answer to the question that so many people ask themselves: why am I doing what I am doing? In my case I asked myself the question: Why do I write? Where does it all come from? When did it start? I asked myself all of this as I had been asked by Gulara to write a blog post for her new series: The Story Behind the Story.
I started to dig in my brain, for memories. I opened old boxes and took out notebooks, looked through them. Not all memories that I came across were good, some had nothing to do with writing. But going through them enabled me to make peace with some things that I had wanted to forget, that I did not accept, thus could not forget.
Since I wrote my contribution for The Story Behind the Story I have grown as a writer but also as a person. It was like a cleansing meditation. I have gained in confidence. A confidence which for me is reflected in the absence of fear from hitting that publish button on my blog. Due to this confidence I signed up for NaNoWriMo (I am behind, but I am not worried, what counts is that the book is starting to take shape) and NanoPoblano. I don’t know, but I feel like writing now comes easier to me.
Do you sense this confidence?
It seems as though confidence attracts both readers and comments. I want to thank everyone who has read or commented thus far on my blog. It really means a lot to me, and has also influenced that growing confidence.
Now, if you have come this far and before I let you go, you might want to read my guest post “Answering my True Calling”, it even includes a small story I wrote in German when I was probably 9 or 10. And then go on and linger on Gulara’s blog, she is a very inspiring blogger.
From the heart, thank you!
© Solveig Werner 2015. All rights reserved.
Solveig Werner 
Wow, Solveig, it’s so inspiring to watch you blossoming and your creativity unfolding. Thank you for your courage to shine your light.
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Thank you Gulara, without your help I don’t think that it would have happened so quickly. Thank you!!
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Thank you, Solveig. A big heartfelt thank you.
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Solveig, I so can relate to your thinking. My brain feels frozen. Recently, I feel like I have fallen into a mud bog and I can’t crawl out. When I work at my writing it is whining and I don’t want to do that. I need to cleanse my soul. Of course, I suppose if I sit and whine enough something eventually will bloom from all the fertilizer and dirt. The only post I have written since this summer is the one I wrote for Gulara’s blog. Gulara is no very kind. I can relate to her life.
So I will watch you grow and attempt to do some growing along with you. I do enjoy your blog.
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Don’t be too harsh on you! Trust in your abilities, I am sure that there is something good there!
Next time you go on a walk, take some pictures, or just describe what you saw, what you felt, how it was and share the moment in writing!
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Oh I have written about my walk many times as I SO LOVE the bay and the sea life. You will even find posts about our Norwegian town, but we live in the U.S. I was looking through some of my journaling… that might be a help too. Doing SOMETHING is the step I need to take. Thanks for your suggestions.
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I am looking forward to your steps forward.
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love your writing, very weird that I found parts of myself in your writing…”I guess we learn by going where we need to be.”
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Thank you!
That sounds interesting, maybe there are things that we have in common, life is strange at times.
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Yah that’s true that’s why we love writers and poets sometimes you find the writer will convey how you feel when you have been struggling to give the feeling expression…thanks for the writing
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you are welcome!
I managed to find your blog, but your username is not linked to it, so that means it is a bit more difficult and I have to go through the gravatar page to get there…
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I am glad you are feeling more confident. Loved the guest post. I read this title and had to click in because the last few weeks I have wanted to say so much that I can’t for all kinds of reasons. So I just have to sit and come up with something else.
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Oh Josh, thank you. All I wanted to do in this post was to point to my guest post, but I did not know how to express myself, so I just did a free write. I must say I ended up saying a lot more than I had thought I would.
Maybe you should do some free writing too, just write down what comes to your mind, and don’t worry.
I am glad you liked the guest post! Thank you again!
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OH, yes. I’ve been writing posts (some published, some to be published) about soul searching and trying to figure out what the heck I’m doing and why. So glad you signed up for NaNoWriMo! Good luck! 🙂
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Have you come closer to finding out? What is your NaNoWriMo user name so that I can add you? I am a bit behind, as I am trying to post on my blog once a day as well…
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